“I commune with my own heart: and my spirit diligently explores her own hidden world.”
I peer through the curtains called me and I am amazed at what lies beyond it! That which lies beyond it, isn’t the boy that every one sees on the outside but that which thinks and sees itself as the boy…
Tony, Tony, Tony… They called, but I was lost, far gone in thought! I stared through this windscreen of an eye motionlessly and wondered why I should respond to the mentioned name. Am I really Tony? Or have I simply become Tony with time?
I was conceived in a womb and out of the division of cells I was formed. I came into this world, and by a single glance, everyone classified me as a boy because they say I have features that characterize me as such.
My parents knew me not, but since I was theirs, they chose to give me a name(Tony) which I have learnt to respond to over time. They gave a definition to what they didn’t know. However, upon careful observation I have realized I’m not the boy but that which came to accept the boy and the name as his.
I see this in my dog too. As a puppy, I gave it the name Bruno even though I did not know what it really was on the inside, after all it’s mine! But now I wonder if the poor dog is really Bruno because it responds to it’s name or it has become Bruno because I gave it that identity…
What then is this in me that has come to accept Tony as it’s name and self. For just like my parents, I also know it not, as it seems to be currently out of my reach. Do I then forget about it and just go with who the boy called Tony is?
Oh wretched man, who will save me? For I don’t know what I really am(even though I know it’s in there). I have just accepted the identity that was put before me! What I have become now is what I have accepted as this boy. But what lies way beyond this boy are all the wonderful things he is yet to accept, for that which interacts in this world through this boy seems to be alot more powerful than the boy himself. And there’s definitely alot more to become than what he is now!
Man, get to know that which lies with in you and you will be amazed by who you really are!
And even though I don’t yet know and understand that which lies with in, I can however boldly say that, that which lies with in me is way beyond this boy(Tony).
“Man know thyself”.
~Way beyond Tony~